Some much needed time to myself

Last Saturday night I went out, I got drunk, I danced, I ate pizza on the walk home. I had more fun than I had in along time, I forgot what it felt like to go out and just relax.

Since the day I gave birth, I've worked, slept and breathed mother, we play all day, go to mothers group, swimming, play centres you name it. My days are always about Harper, even when he goes to bed at night I blog about him or read baby books trying to know everything I can about being the best mother I can be.

I have a 2 inch regrowth and haven't brought anything for myself in months, I couldn't even track what I've brought for Harper over the last few months.

Caring for a baby is exhausting and sometimes you get lost.

Don't doubt it for a seconded, I love being a mother, it's fulfilled me more than I could ever have imaged, I'm proud of mother I am, I'm just a little worried that somewhere along the road to becoming a parent I lost part of me. I know we all change, how could we not, I don't want to be the person I was before Harper but I would like to revisit her.

Most of the time when my friends ask me to do something I say no, sometimes its hard to leave you baby, but from now on I'm going to make a effort to spend one day a month doing something for me.

and Matt, I'm going shopping.