I've spent a lot of time lately thinking about how much my life has changed and how I was feeling this time last year, I was 35 weeks pregnant and just finishing work, I felt a little uneasy about all the changes that were happening, I was tired! Luckily I only had one week of work left and had just crossed the last thing off my long list of thing to do, Getting the capsule fitted.
I wanted to be super organized and I was.
I had several books under my belt, Baby equipment for everything you could think of, Hours of research on the net I mean I had even googled what people pack in their nappy bags and packed mine, I didn't even have a baby yet let alone a place to go out with a baby. I was just so excited.
I wanted to know everything I could about babies and pregnancy and had learnt a lot, But no matter how organized you are nothing can prepare you for a baby, Not a book, Not a day dream, Not any prenatal class and definitely Not the Internet.
Harper was the biggest Planned shock of my life.
Looking back the first few months seem like a dream. Each problem you are dealing with is replaced by another relevant to your babies age and the old problem forgotten. When Harper was first born I thought to myself it's okay as he gets older everything will get easier, I will not worry about him so much....
I won't have to check he is breathing every night before I can fall asleep, I won't worry something will happen to him if I'm not there, I won't be that over protective parent always a step behind him in case he falls.
I've now come to accept that worry comes with the territory of being a parent, That some things get easier as they get older and some much harder. That the crazy love you have for them gets stronger when you thought it was at it's strongest. That the life you once knew seems like just yesterday and a world ago all at once
Harper will soon be one, Your babies first birthday seems to bring up a lot of emotion it's such a bittersweet occasion. To me he is still that little baby I brought home form the hospital and I wonder if most of you feel the same way.
I certainly agree. I ready every book I thought I needed to read in order to bring my son into this world..but I wasn't 100% prepared for everyone, that's for sure. Harper is such a doll, he sure is a blessed little boy!
ReplyDeleteThat is certainly the truth! I don't think it ever gets easier, just different! And it's totally bittersweet to see them grow!
ReplyDeleteI am right there with you... I can't believe our little one is 11 months old.
ReplyDeleteI was the same way, I bought every gadget and thought that having so much stuff is actually good, only to find out that a baby doesn't really need much.
ReplyDeleteI needed to read this. I have been feeling all of these things since my little C is turning one tomorrow. Great post.
ReplyDeleteI totally relate to this! My Kaylin will be 1 in just a few weeks and it does bring up a lot of emotions and reflections on the past year. Love the pic of you...and Harper of course!
ReplyDeleteSO true, on all points. Very good post miss, got me a little choked up...my boy is 2 next week and I'm struggling to figure out where all the time has already gone.
ReplyDeleteI know!! You prepare so much and it seems like no matter how much you read or how much advice other people give you, only having a baby yourself can you fully understand what it is like. I always knew I would love my baby but the love I feel is so much more intense than I even thought possible!! :)
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I have a bit to go till April when my little man turns one but I think I'll be feeling the same way...
ReplyDeleteOhh they grow so quickly and I'm soo... not prepared!